thoughts on returning home

I have been back in the states for 23 days now and have been lagging on the updates. My time here has flown by but my days have been fairly mellow. I’ve spent my time catching up on the stories I missed while afar, browsing western food and clothing isles, answering a million and one questions on my year’s experiences, reading books for pleasure, enjoying the closer time zone gaps and talking on the phone at normal hours, taking walks with my parents…life has been good.

I have spent most of my time here talking to people and all my conversations have made me thankful that I am genuinely happy doing what I am doing. I can say with honesty that I am happy both at my school and in Korea. I also can say with honesty that I do not know what my future will hold. By far the most common question I have received here is something along the lines of “when will you come back to the states?” My answer has typically been evasive, but truly stems back to that fact that I don’t know. I have loved every minute of this year and have grown tremendously from my experiences. There is a quote by Nelson Mandela that goes like this, “There is nothing like returning to a place that remains unchanged to find the ways in which you yourself have altered.” While I know that neither the states nor my friends have gone unchanged, the people who know me intimately still serve as a measuring stick of my growth. Coming home I have seen so many ways that my views have expanded and my norms have shifted. My eyes have been opened to more possibilities and endless needs as I have seen more of the world. There is so much in the world that lures me to stay away for longer. And yet, being home makes me long to be closer to family and friends. I cherish the moments I got to spend with people this break because I know that in the end, relationships are what’s important. People really pull me towards a place.

I am getting ready to leave the states in just a few days (Monday, I can’t believe it!). I am going to Japan for 6 days by myself before I head back to Korea. It will be nice to explore for a bit at the end. I am stoked to see all my Korean friends again. The wonderful but sad reality is that I now have friends all around the world. As I get physically close to some, I must leave others behind. I have thoroughly enjoyed being close to people in the states again, but am also excited to return to Daejeon. How nice it is to have so many people and places I love!!

If you are interested in seeing a facebook album I just added with some of my pics from my time in the states, follow the link below:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2114258&l=c07ea&id=4702163